It's 12:09 am, and i need to go to bed. I really wanna get up early to Hike up Mt. Pisgah...but i think that'll happen ON my Birthday, rather than tomorrow.
Today/well, tonight was strange. I just kinda broke down when i started to read the verses we hafta memorize for Theology, and well, Josh was there, and i hate breaking down in front of him, cuz well, to be honest, He's emotionally unstable for the both of us. and I know that God wants to circumsize my heart, and i will let Him.
On top of that, I broke the spiritual bondage tonight of reliance on Coffee...*(as i had a frappacino at Starbucks)- well, i got to my room and took one look at the coffee pot, and thought ....anything goes. it's either that or God, and well, i am just filled with all these things that i wanna get rid of just becuz they are like stapeling me down to the WORLD'S standards, and well, those SUCK. So, what I'm asking God to do in me is SET ME APART AND CHANGE ME. becuz that is what HE wants to do...and while my heart get's circumsized, and my flesh screams out in agony over dying becuz of the flesh....i realize more and more I WANT what GOD wants...but i'm only seeing it little by little. not the whole picture. But i must be purged of other things as well...well, needless to say i picked up my coffee maker, and along with all my coffee and whatever else would make me drink coffee, I marched out to the dumpster, and prayed the LORD would Deliver me from this Evil God...false GoD....it won't fill me...it isn't my stronghold anymore. I choose The LORD., and i heard it hit the bottom...and after that i prayed and cried...and went back to my room.
i will type in here to talk about anything else the Lord is telling me to be rid of. I have been feeling like I should fast ...BIG TIME.

sweet spring song.