I guess i should feel bad, but i don't. I feel a bit sleepy, that's about it.
I went to the "western restaurant" here-- I didn't eat anything though. EH-Hem....yeah. that's all i'll say. Other than that- I saw the cutest red-headed guy there! and he was from England! He had the strongest accent I've heard yet. But it sounded more Scottish than anything. And man--i'm tellin' ya, he had the most blazin' red hair! and I told him that i thought he had a scottish accent, and he's like "Naaa. Not really. Scott's sound a bit different." Anyways. This restaurant is owned by a Sweed and his wife...they both speak really good - English i mean. And, well--I got to hear about how they met, and how they decided to open up this restaurant and they teach people on the side also...english. Anyways...most of the teachers go there to hang out- and they have a POOL TABLE! so, i was like ROCK ON! I played pool mostly when i got there...and the owners came over to chat...along with the dude that was workin' the bar. It's pretty cute and small...i guess intimate is the word. It was really fun. So, i had a few drinks---Irish Bailey's and some tequila shots...and some sorta' drink that this dude made,"on the house"- becuz Chinese people like to do "Cheers" to everything...so, like "Hey! I have a dog and You have a dog! Let's Cheer!" or "Hey! I have a mother! YOu have a mother! Let's Cheer to that!" it's really funny.
But, after those drinks, i think i was really feelin' it by then. And playing pool was getting a bit difficult. so i slowed down a bit...i decided to drink more water, and keep eating lemons. Lemons taste abnormally GOOD while yer drinking. ODD...I think.

Anyways. I know I won't be doing this alot. Cuz i can't. I just can't. It's just on weird occassions when i do drink. I dont' know. Anyways. I had TONS of fun last night....and well. I'll check the place out again sometime for the holidays- possibly for New Years Eve...maybe. But. Today. right now I mean...i'm gonna go to the Long Men Gratto...and possibly to a hot spring! OOOHHH NICE!! that would be perfect on a day like this..cold and such. But i'll take a shower first...
chow for now.

and now i'm watching Two Towers for the billionith time. I probably won't finish it to the end. Just have it on, so i'm not sitting in this dark, lonely apartment quietly. If there's some sorta noise that'll do.
I will show Home Alone for all my classes this week. and next week is christmas...but i will only go over to SIAS for christmas...oh well. it's alright. at least i'll have some sorta connection with Christmas time...people who celebrate it. that's enough for me.
Anyways. i'm developing this horrible headache and i think it's cuz i've been locked in front of this stinkin' computer all day.
Auck.
I've been looking up info. on christian communes in america, and there isn't any in Oregon, which is a pity cuz it's a good place to start one I think. But there are some in Vermont, and on the Eastern Coast.
I wonder if this is something I would actually look into doing. Who knows what God has planned. But as for now, I think I should go to Lane, once I get back. Prepare for the future. Restaurant Management and other ideas have been in my mind. I will continue to pray about them and see what the Lord's will is once I get to Oregon again.
I think i should turn this machien off soon,.
eyes hurt.

Now i'm currently listening to the christian online station. Good stuff. they actually have some Waterdeep on here! the song "Hush".
Anyways. to make this typing worth while.
Well, in recent news- good news so to speak- i guess they caught Saddam? But i'm not so sure about that. Come on! it seems too easy, like he just gave up???!! After all these months! i don't know. something doesn't seem right. I just hope the soldiers keep on the alert, and this doesn't present an opportunity for the enemy to creep in, becuz of lack of attention on the fighting. Well, i guess i shouldn't worry about it. I've been in support of Bush, for whatever reason he would go to war with Iraq, the Lord put him in leadership over us. So, i trust him. I just pray that his integrity remains pure and righteous. That a righteous anger burns in him. I wonder if i will vote for him once the time rolls around. I don't think I voted last time. I should though, really. Well, vote. But for whom? i don't know.i'll do some serious praying about it.
anyways. I was reading Timothy today. a little.
I timothy 4:14-
"Do not neglect the spiritual gift within you, which was bestowed on you through prophetic utterance with the laying on of hands by the presbytery."
So, I know i've been given the spiritual gift of speaking in tounges....and when i read this, i just felt an urge to pray in tounges. i really don't know what I say, but I trust God is pouring through me,what Jesus himself prays to the King--and that whatever I cannot pray in words...that His will is accomplished through spiritual tounges. Yeah. I know i recieved that as a spiritual gift,...and maybe prophecy? I wonder how i'm suppose to work through this-- I just wanna recieve a word from Jesus. Not any prophetic thing..>I just wanna HEAR Him period. That's all. I wouldn't mind if it'd be just a simple hello! So, i think it'd be asking too much for prophecy, considering where I am spiritually. I don't really think that'd be too wise. I don't know.

So. I might go to see Bill and Eva Christmas Day, and after (25-26)--and then visit Star and maybe Michael, on that weekend...to maybe hang out with them.
Man. If ya think about it. If my only purpose in being here is to just spend time with Star. and that's it...I really hope that I'm a good example to her. I hope God would pour in me the things that she's needed to hear for a while. Really. MMM> i wonder. a prophetic word for Star?? maybe.

Welp, i shall dash for now.
sweet spring song.