A new post.
In such a long time I've typed.
I drank a Cafe' Mocha Breve- on my drive on the way back to Junction City from EBC> It's been a good day today. I gotta talk to Rullena and she asked me if I was physically or sexually abused when I was younger- and I said Physically by my step dad and I don't know if I was sexually abused....well, I don't know what her definition of that is. So, I don't know if she'd call it sexual abuse. But I wonder if that's what's linking me to what I think today. Things I think ....
Possibly.
OH...I love talking to Rullena...she's so strengthening...and after talking to her,...I just wanna spend time with the Lord, cuz He's so wonderful.
I think I'll have a quite time when I get home..I'm currently in the Junction City Library.

Well, as for things with me. I'm alright. I need to fill out my tax returns shortly and I'm working everything out for when I go to Lane. But I'm still needing deliverance. And I'm just waiting for God to open the doors to salvation for me in these areas of my heart.
I've been thinking about it alot- and I know that I want Jesus to have that part of my heart that I've blocked off from Him, cuz I've been scared of relationships- I've been scared of the whole Husband/wife kinda relationship with HIm. Cuz I don't know how to have one. My idea of that kind of relationship is so screwed up, I need to get it re-aligned.
Realigned to what Jesus has for me.
And so this is how life is right now.
and no matter what, I know that Jesus loves me and will never give up on me.
This is truth I can hold onto.
Sweet Spring Song.