Can't leave...God won't let me. Well, i guess He will let me, but He doesn't want me to leave...Just yet anyways...He says: "Not Yet"---although I DO want to go home...I keep hearing HIM say "Not Yet"-
I love the Lord my God...and Jesus His son...and there's no way I'd purposly do anything out of His will...or else I'd rather die- cuz my life is worth nothing to me, just as Paul the apostle's life was nothing to him. My life is only to love Jesus with everything that I am and have...and if I refuse to do that- i have no reason to live, no purpose to live.
Anyways...with that said.
I'm not leaving.
I'm not gone yet.
The thought that I was leaving was almost really thrilling, but Not yet.
Not Yet.
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