i know a guy- i work with. his name is Eric. he's awesome...funny, nice, a gentleman...and i don't know whether or not he's a Christian. and he hangs out with a guy that IS a brother in the Lord- so I don't know what to make of it.- i will for sure ask him tonight- when i work at Reflections.
I knew this would happen.
and he asked if I had a boyfriend....and he doesn't have a girlfriend. I told him about me- that I love Jesus and he asked about the ring on my right hand- and i'm not gonna give in, I'm not gonna give up the promise the Lord has given me for my love.
But he's very much interested in me- i'd think that it'd be good to get to know him a bit better...talk about stuff- God stuff mainly. I'll find out.
and if he's not- I can't...I'm not...even though he's WONDERFUL!....i just can't. it wouldn't be what my Father wants. BUT- if he's interested in Knowing the Lord more- i will tell him my story. and then what?
i don't know. God is my LORD, and i will not falter, cuz he's the one I love...and the one i love will LOVE him too!
i gotta go- to do some stuff for NMC, online.
filling out a Master Promissery note or somethign like that.
ciao

yes. i have tons of time to blog.
I have no friends. that's how i am able to do so.

well, a good point in today- i will be going to a 21+ group at New Hope- cuz Faith Reformed doesn't have one.
And it's at 8 o clock tonight. it'll be good, i think. Angie wants to hang out, but i really don't wanna spend any money doing anything, cuz i'm as poor as a dog...
which brings me to another point- i wanted to go to the pound and see if i could find a little poochie to call my own..but alas- i didn't- cuz i realized that i would just be filling a void.
and after reading that book- Journey of Desire- i know that i should let this loneliness sit and wait and hunger- do what it needs to do, cuz then I'll realize that Jesus really is the only one that can fill this void. This spot where i want somebody to hang out with, and share my life with- he's really the only one.

I know that the Lord makes these quite times to reveal himself to us- to be silent and still before Him helps me put things in perspective.
it hurts to type or do anything with my hands : (
bad news.
i hafta wear my wrist thingys all the time now : (

i live with an older woman- named Nancy. and she's about 53.
and she told me that the other girl that lives downstars (Dana) is gay. and she's known since she was 16.  Nancy wanted to tell me this cuz she didn't know what i would think of it...living in the same house and somebody that's gay- and what i feel about it.
and it strikes me funny for one, that this girl says that she's "made" this way- or Nancy says this becuz Dana has said this. But i know it's not true. they choose this lifestyle. 
Anyways- this girl, only 19 yrs. old has gotten bad responses from "Christians" and she KNOWS that i'm a christian- just by looking at my van, and she was scared, so she told Nancy to tell me this stuff.
SHE WAS SCARED.
that's sad. it makes me sad for one that she's living in sin and she doesn't even recognize it as sin and for another that she was scared of me- being a christian-that she would be cast aside or thought "bad" of. 
dont' get me wrong, sometimes we do handle the things of this world VERY hard- and we don't know how to respond, especially if we don't know the TRUE nature of GOD- cuz then we would represent HIM wrongly...which is something i try to stay away from.
But, as i was riding my bike around this morning (thinking about this suprising news) I was thinking "What would you do Jesus? How would you act?"----- and I know that HE LOVES HER...WITH AN UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.  and that's what i told Nancy- that I'll love her no matter what- not that agree with what she does or think, but that I love her as a sister in Christ (cuz in the truer picture of it all- she was supposed to be my sister in Christ- but we live in a fallen world)--- and that i dont' hate her or i wont' think anything less of her....and hopefully through my LOVE of JESUS- she will see that HE is good, and that no matter what has happened to her, or what she's done, SHE can be forgiven and accepted again as a new creation.

Living in Nancy's house for only 2 days already has shown me that i need to protect myself with the WORD of GOD> cuz it's my only source of truth in this dying world....and it's my only strong tower in this falling, crumbling mansion (cuz the foundation is being destroyed.)

OH. LORD we need your help as a people- America needs your Spirit again. WE need your conviction LORD! Jesus we need your presence among us, in the grocery stores, in the restaurants, in the streets....everywhere there is a soul to be found wandering and lost, please be there- becuz we are in desperate need of truth to live amongst us....a people that is dying slowly. a people satisfied with it's current condition of poverty and slavery of mind and soul from the enemy of the LORD.  Jesus come like a swift, courageous warrior to your love, who is desperately seeking your return and waits in anticipation for your sword to strike down the Father of Lies.  The damsel waits in the crumbling tower Jesus. She waits for you.

i'm typing again- second time today!
So, i'm using somebody else's computer though. Nancy's!
She's my boss at work- sort of. She's really awesome...kinda opened up her doors to me..and only asking 250 a month for rent...including everything...even using everything of hers. I just need to buy my own food and stuff. But...it'll be okay for the first month or so, cuz she said to just give her 25 dollars and that'd be good till i get paid..i guess.
But- i have a room.
I have a bed.
i have a dresser
although they're not really mine. i actually can use these things. they are temporary...i know. cuz they're not mine. but i'm fine with that, cuz i dont' care much about material things.
i'm currently eating some cottage cheese, cuz i don't have anything else to eat. and i just unpacked most of my stuff.

this is totally awesome. i got two prayers answered in the same day!  i like this kind of turn over rate with God....! He's good...good to is children.
1. I was praying for a place to live- and He gave me Nancy.
2. I was praying for a home church (not New Hope)- and He gave me Faith Reformed Church (where i orginally got saved! amazing enough)
God just suprises me like that.. doing something i didn't expect. or actually. doing it above and beyond what I expected.
there ya go.
ciao

welp. i'm here.
well- i have a new home somewhere.- Nancy from work is letting me rent her room- just like at Sharron's house...i'll live there and can use everything...but it's just SO far away from everything now. It'll take like 30 minutes to drive to work, which sucks.

but it's out in the country a bit and it's got a woodsy-backyard...which is nice. and i can jump on the trampoline!
so. i prayed about it, while i was unpacking my stuff and felt alright about moving there. Maybe having the place that Amber was living in was gonna be too expensive for me- that might be right. cuz they were asking 450 dollars, where i'll be paying 250 for the room at Nancy's place.
and i'll finally be out of this stinkin' environment, where there's always smoke everywhere!

my mom is kinda bummed cuz she wants to go on bike rides all the time and well, i'll be able to still. i think.  and Nancy is really flexible with me paying her- it might be pretty spendy once i start, but it'll be alright once i have my student stuff going on.
it's a pretty day outside.
OH!
praise report- I KNOW that this is the church God wants me to go to- Faith Reformed, where i got saved, and the church that i was putting in an application for the receptionist job! I'm SO excited, cuz it's SO right on...and i felt at home. it'll be good. i'm so excited about that and I felt comfortable worshipping with everyone there. (raising my hands and stuff) and it's been an alright day all the way around.
i'm just hungry for real food and it's taking FOREVER for them to start the food...and i really need to get back over there to Nancy's house so i can unpack more stuff.
uhg.
i'm tired.
ciao for now.