i am here and my teeth hurt!
ouch.
i was just talking to somebody about Joseph and I- a girl i live with here, in the house of 5 women. (secretly, i think i will miss these years of being surrounded by other women and being lifted up in prayer and being of the same spirit- you know-womanly time is good for the soul)
so- we were talking- and i said: "I just don't want this time to just fly right by my face and not take it all in. I don't want this time of courting to just blink by and not be able to pause and think "ahhhh, i'm in love" or "He's the one" or "I am betrothed to my beloved" - you know what i mean.
It just seems to be happening all so fast.
sweeping by me like a windstorm, getting all caught up in it, with my hair flowing backwards and getting all tangled up, and seeing the lightning strike and not fully taking it all in. to pause for a moment and breath in the love.....to absorb the calmness of spirit and the rest of the soul.
Ach! I can't explain it fully.
i wonder if Brandi knows what i'm talking about.

Anyways. here i am, totally excited about everything God is doing right now, and totally excited about what he's gonna do in the future. He's opening doors, and he's blessing us. in ways. and i've asked Him to completely bless us and go before us (like wedding stuff-ya know-expensive stuff) and to hook us up- as if we had unlimited resources to get married. That God would provide all our needs according TO HIS riches and glory! not our own- so, all the more, we would have our Father in Heaven provide for us, when nobody else could/would.
God's always been there for me like that- and i know he will when it comes to that kinda stuff. I hafta remember what he's done for me in the past.
GOD IS SOOOOO GOOD.
really, He IS.
that HE is.
man i love HIM. Jesus jesus jesus...my love.
there's so much more to life than just living.
there's more to life than breathing, eating, and working.
there's more to life than my own pleasure or happiness.