the world of new jersey and school.
ugh.
that's all i gotta say. it sucks. NMC was WAAAAYYY better than this school- cuz this school is like ghetto. and i wish i were still going to NMC. dang it.
i gotta believe that God brought me here though- he's the one that opened the doors.
he's the one that provided a place for me to stay. he's the one that gave me money to get out here. he's the one who made my van work all the way...
i gotta stop complaining. it's just a REALLY diverse school. and for a little country- bumpkin kinda girl- i've never really gone to a school like this.
ontop of everything, i gotta take another freaking LOAN OUT. that's kinda making me mad. cuz i JUST KNEW...I HAD A GUT FEELING that this stupid girl was WRONG about the pell grant. i asked her 20 times if it would stay at 2,200 dollars, EVEN IF I WASN'T GOING FULL TIME...and she told me that it shouldn't change from that....arrrggg. making me mad.

and i guess i gotta find a church to go to now- cuz i'm not going to joseph's church. it's tooo mega-church for me...(we're talking thousands of people) and well. it's up to me to find a new church. stinky. like i really know the area???? not really. but for some reason the ball is in MY COURT to find a new church. this sucks.

i'm sorry for venting everyone- i've been thinking about escaping to China again....but i'm not gonna do that. i'm gonna suck it up and just live with it....ugh. i hate that idea too.
let's just say that i'm throwing out the sheep's wool and praying that God will give me a sign that THIS IS WHERE i'm suppose to be- and JOSEPH is truly the ONE i'm suppose to be with.
ciao