Hey. here i am typing. at 2:00 in the morning- right after work
only long enuf to finish this glass of wine. It's cherry festival wine. cherry wine, mixed a bit with white wine i think. it's really good.
i just got off of work and i sit here typing.
i was talking about Jesus to somebody at work- his name is Adam, funny, huh? well, he was all talking about "Not really KNOWING that the bible is true, unless yer dead and that you would have the PROOF that God existed." and i said, "Then you wouldn't BELIEVE in Jesus"
It's funny. people don't like putting faith in things. like, for example, God. it's hard for people to actually BELIEVE in something so good or so loving or so perfect or so knowing, ...ect.
people want a quick answer, a microwavable dinner, a speed line to the other side. they don't want to really go THROUGH ALL THE TOIL OF SEEKING GOD...they dont' wanna hafta go through SO MUCH WORK to find an answer. they don't find it comfortable to here that there is a hell. and it's real. and there's such a place as heaven, and IT'S REAL.

today. i heard about "Generational Curses"-- these are curses that a family can be passing on and passing on-- untill a person finally breaks them....the curses that is.
Like alcholism in a family-- that a grandfather and a father and eventually a son will be addicted to drinking and drink themselves into oblivion. Well...if the son actually took captive all those lies and curses that "They'll be nothing but a drunk their whole life...and they'll end up just like their father"--- Well, IF you know JESUS as your savior....you could be completely and totally set free from all of these things....any curse, whatsoever that resides over your family....
And that's what the speaker spoke on today.
I had to leave- cuz i worked at 4:30-- but actually, since i was partially falling asleep during the time he was speaking, i left at 3:45-- and then i got a flurry at an ice cream shop. Cherry Cheescake.

I am totally digging this song "My Immortal" by Evanesence-- i really feel like it's me. like saying the stuff to Jesus.
"These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real...
But you still have all of me...."

I wanna start playing my violin more.
i think instead of being bored out of my mind, i will try to play my own little ditties on the violin. I really won't know what i'm doing, but i think that's alright. it's alright that i play whatever. i mean, i gotta figure out HOW to play the violin again. I think that will be the toughest part.
anyways. the wine is gone and I'M really tired.
it's sleepy time
ciao