Monday now
I've had such a GOOD weekend....man. of like deliverance and repentance and like FORGIVING people and myself.
Dude. it's hard to believe it- but i was my OWN worst enemy. i severly hated myself. But, i have realized now that it was just the PLOY of the enemy to TAKE ME OUT...and maybe end my life....BUT HIS PLANS ARE THWARTED NOW.
and i can recognize when satan tries to come against me...and trying the same old' schemes and plans to take me out....lying to me all the time.
BUT I WON'T HAVE IT ANYMORE. I WON'T TAKE IT ANYMORE.
beware satan.
the LION of ZION has awaken.....
growl.....

I'm sooo excited, i can't wait to see what is to come.
like, even JUST for this summer. i'm sooo excited! YAY Jesus!
and it's funny. Jesus gave me Psalm 42-- and i realize that my friend- JOSH Laflin- back out in Oregon- he did a rap about this song. it was wwaaaayyyy cool too.
i really haven't heard from him in forever. being married and all, and not living in Eugene anymore...hmmm
and that's another story. and i have no bitterness when i talk about this...but...there's a BIG difference in trying to connect to old friends, ESPECIALLY when they're married.
It's just hard- becuz they are at an emotional level of connection with another human being that YOURE not, so its like the things that were ONCE the topic of conversation, like God, Jesus, the Holy Spirit-- like fade into the background. and people don't really talk about that kinda stuff anymore. Like, they are soo consumed or really involved with their mate- it's like all those passions of SERVING Jesus have faded into nothing.
Man, i really dont' want it to end up like that with me. I hope that my mate will actually STIR me up for pursuing MORE of God and desiring more of the Holy Spirit. and i will do the same for my love.

So that's that.
i'm listening to Evanesence