Dudes. i was gonna type this response to my friends' email to me- on this Blog but i chose not to. it wouldn't be wise.
instead...i shall rant about...
LAST NIGHT!
SOOOO awesome!
i was totally stoked! it was sooo fun!
Ok- we (my friend richard and I) went to worship and prayer night (cuz it's on fridays usually)-- and well. it was just WAY awesome. I kinda went "Expecting" to hear from the Lord- But like, personally. I wasn't planning on getting prayed for or anything...but there was this awesome "spirit" of like passionate LOVE in the air. Like, Jesus was setting us on FIRE for HIM again...Like the flames of First Love! (Revelations) once again...and i was like totally overwhelmed with it! and i got some sorta vision in my mind- after pastor mike was talking about "Setting the Bride of Christ on fire again"--- I got a picture in my mind, of a woman, with like mascara running down her face (cuz she's been crying) and she's in a beautiful WHITE wedding dress- but the dress is on fire! the bottom part is on fire, but SHE isn't getting BURNED! and in her hand she was carrying a sword. in her right hand...and it was kinda like pointed out- towards where she was walking- which was into a dark alley...she was headed into the darkness with the sword in her hand and her dress a blaze...But she had a broken heart (hence the running mascara) for the lost.
Man.
it was a crazy, awesome vision....
I'm getting on FIRE for the Lord again!
ONCE again! I'm burning with a passion to KNOW and LOVE HIM. and like...a friend of mine...after the whole worship and prayer time-
She felt like the Lord wanted her to braid my hair!
Weird huh?
Well, WHILE she was braiding my hair (which i still have braided as I type) she was praying over me. Praying that Jesus wants to take me away again. Wisk me away to himself and have a passionate love with me..and she said something about in Song of Solomon that it says something about how the man LOVED the woman with the braided hair and said she was beautiful.
and she started to pray that I would start to see myself as beautiful...and see myself how Jesus sees me...a beautiful bride...and beautiful woman.
and man....something just broke in me.
Oh-yeah. For got to say- Pastor Mike prayed over me...like, specifically about my calling- he felt it was "teacher" but I can only trust JESUS to do something like that...cuz i seriously think i suck at teaching, but OK. if it's really the Lord's will, it will be done regardless. I just hafta say "Yes and Amen"... And then, he broke some stuff off of me. It was mainly about breaking off the Spirit of thinking Men are from Satan and stuff. But THEY are not EVIL, but SATAN himself is evil! We don't wrestle again flesh and blood, but pricipalities and wickedness and things in high places that exalt themselves again Jesus.
and he also felt that I need to break the internal vows that I've made- to never trust another man ever again...and to never love a man ever again.
AND THOSE WERE BROKEN OFF OF ME! ALL OF THEM!

and i BELONG to JESUS alone now.
I'm all HIS....HIS alone.
I'm really excited...i can't wait...i mean...to see what lies beneath all of the curses that were broken....WHAT promises are to come. What promises the LORD is going to fullfill.
OH WOW.
amen