Why do I hold onto hope? and the stigma of relationships:

What i mean is- why do i hold onto the hope of a "Godly on-fire for Jesus man"? Really. Am I waiting in vain? I think not. Cuz i've had examples of "Godly on-fire for Jesus" men- a few of my friends, actually...Joseph, JC, Josh...and others back out in Oregon and here in Michigan...
So- know they exist.
i keep hope alive in me- i know they exist.

and as for the Stigma of relationships in the church-- that's a funny story.
Cuz dude. If you picture everyone as your sister or brother in Christ...then how could you start a relationship with somebody you already consider a "sister" or "brother" in the Lord. Like,...there is this "silent" killer in opportunites of starting relationships becuz people will automatically assume that you aren't radical for Jesus if you want/have a relationship with somebody...I mean. like if a guy pursues a girl (if it's a Godly pursuit)-- people will for some reason think that they aren't focused on the Lord or something...cuz they are too concerned with this girl/guy....
that's ridiculous.
Cuz the apostle Paul talks about how it's a good thing to take a wife or whatever...
hhmmmm, i think these are just random rantings...
So i will stop here.