topic of discussion:
Who was I in high school?

well, only a couple of people can really testify to this. I think i was a ghost. really nonexistant, nobody would have recognized me. I think only the few. only the ones who really took to heart what i was about would really know who i was in high school. I think angie and megan would know. I really was just a drop on by kinda girl. but even more. behind the scenes- i was a "deep thinker", i was one of those people the high schoolers didn't really wanna socialize with. I made many college aged friends, such as David and Andrew? I can't really remember his name- but becuz i had questions, many questions, for those graduating ones--- they found me somewhat intriguing....
so, i guess i was a wanderer, even during high school.
I wanted to see the world. see what it was made of....
see what every other human saw it as.....

March 20th 2006
Only 2 days and 8 years since I've accepted Christ, and renewed like a ROARING FIRE since the 16th of March...only 4 days ago. I've renewed my devotion to the Lord, and he's replaced in me all the passion, all the excitement, and all the wildness I once had for Him...HIM ALONE.
He's calling me back to himself in a BIG way and I'm ready to follow him once again.....more than just follow, but PASSIONATELY PURSUE HIM and JUMP INTO THE RIVE OF LIFE AND DANCE AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!
seriously you guys (whoever might be reading this)- there's "RELIGION" and then there's "Passionate Love Affair with the Lord of Heaven and Earth" . If this is the only thing i could tell a person it would be Love the Maker of Your heart and Surrender to HIS will, cuz he has nuthin' but the good stuff for you. I mean answers, I mean meaning, I mean the very HOPE you are searching for, when you go out to the bars or the dance clubs, or when you try to fill that emptiness or void you have in life. DUDE. i don't wanna be the preacher here (cuz i am nobody to be preaching, cuz i'm am a recovering sinner just as well as you) But if you could gain everything in the whole world and forefit your soul for mere material possessions or personal gain or worldly success, IT'S NOT WORTH IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
EVERYTHING IN ME SCREAMS THAT IT'S NOT WORTH IT!

So, in light of that, I surrender to God and his calling me back home, cuz i need to be there for some reason and i REALLY need to be going to the church i go to- Dwelling Place. and i'm soooo ready for MORE of the LORD. i really miss being totally surrendered to HIM and being completely and utterly abandoned to HIM!!! So, here goes everything!