Hey. here i am typing. at 2:00 in the morning- right after work
only long enuf to finish this glass of wine. It's cherry festival wine. cherry wine, mixed a bit with white wine i think. it's really good.
i just got off of work and i sit here typing.
i was talking about Jesus to somebody at work- his name is Adam, funny, huh? well, he was all talking about "Not really KNOWING that the bible is true, unless yer dead and that you would have the PROOF that God existed." and i said, "Then you wouldn't BELIEVE in Jesus"
It's funny. people don't like putting faith in things. like, for example, God. it's hard for people to actually BELIEVE in something so good or so loving or so perfect or so knowing, ...ect.
people want a quick answer, a microwavable dinner, a speed line to the other side. they don't want to really go THROUGH ALL THE TOIL OF SEEKING GOD...they dont' wanna hafta go through SO MUCH WORK to find an answer. they don't find it comfortable to here that there is a hell. and it's real. and there's such a place as heaven, and IT'S REAL.

today. i heard about "Generational Curses"-- these are curses that a family can be passing on and passing on-- untill a person finally breaks them....the curses that is.
Like alcholism in a family-- that a grandfather and a father and eventually a son will be addicted to drinking and drink themselves into oblivion. Well...if the son actually took captive all those lies and curses that "They'll be nothing but a drunk their whole life...and they'll end up just like their father"--- Well, IF you know JESUS as your savior....you could be completely and totally set free from all of these things....any curse, whatsoever that resides over your family....
And that's what the speaker spoke on today.
I had to leave- cuz i worked at 4:30-- but actually, since i was partially falling asleep during the time he was speaking, i left at 3:45-- and then i got a flurry at an ice cream shop. Cherry Cheescake.

I am totally digging this song "My Immortal" by Evanesence-- i really feel like it's me. like saying the stuff to Jesus.
"These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real...
But you still have all of me...."

I wanna start playing my violin more.
i think instead of being bored out of my mind, i will try to play my own little ditties on the violin. I really won't know what i'm doing, but i think that's alright. it's alright that i play whatever. i mean, i gotta figure out HOW to play the violin again. I think that will be the toughest part.
anyways. the wine is gone and I'M really tired.
it's sleepy time
ciao

in the eye of the storm, yet completely at peace.
there is this couple at church, they are guest speakers or whatever. prophetic husband and wife team. they are from IHOP- down in Kansas City...pretty cool i guess. I've had a couple of distant pals that went to IHOP. i haven't heard from them in forever. but anyways.
we're on break right now for lunch. and they're gonna meet again at 2:00 and i hafta work at 4:00- So, i really hope that the woman will be able to speak to me today. but that's fine if she doesn't.
actually, i REALLY want the LORD to speak to me. not her, not the husband...not anybody here.
But the LORD alone.
i'll type more later tater.
after work- which will be around 2:00 in the morning dude.
seriously late

Just to let everyone know...if they still ever check this blog of mine.
I am gonna be typing in this one more than the Myspace.
Becuz I am concuring with my friend JC about the whole thing about myspace being really, uhmmm, i don't know- have pics. and stuff that are not really wholesome and edifying christ,.
So, i'm gonna be typing in here more that usual now. and actually i'll probably copy and past what i type in here to the Myspace page.
and i'll check everyone else out.
i kinda like blogger better. less ads.
over and out