Okay, I am seriously needing wise council right now....I don't know if...hmm, I just don't know. i'm torn right now Lord, between two different friends, who I'm pretty good friends with and one that I'm so-so friends with...and does'nt really care about being anymore than that...and I'm torn Lord REALLY torn. Becuz i swore that it was Him, before...i heard you say wait for him...But now- my closest friend here at school is really becoming more than that to me. Is that wrong? Is it wrong for me to feel like this and is it okay for us to be going to San Fran together? Lord, i know that your will is for me to stay here- at this school and I can't escape that...but when it comes down to the guy thing, is it really how i think it is? Or is it different? is it something else entirely? do i make it out to be some sort of fairy tale thing, when it is really just reality? or just like Shrek? I need to hear from you on this! i need help. I need a father to tell me what Kind of guy He wants me to marry, becuz i know my deciding factors are very fleshly, and I ask for material things in guys...like a guy who is pretty well fit, and not the deeper things like a guy who is spiritually fit...a guy who is honorable, in comparison to a guy who just likes to swoon all the girls...a jealous guy, in comparision to a guy that is patient and trustworthy himself. Lord- my definition of Love is sooo screwed up...i need to know what your definition of love is...and I'll read it tonight, just to refresh my memory- Please speak to me.
I thought, tonight in the shower, of, when I'd be pregnant and having a baby, and my belly would be all big in the shower- i was thinking of all the prophecy that would be spoken over it...and i heard somewhat of a prophecy like it-..i don't know. maybe i shouldn't say anything.
I'll leave it now...i hope nobody reads this...i hopesean doens't have my website address.
The curious wanderer,
apes
7:44 pm