It's been 5 days since typing in here. I wrote in my journal a couple of days. But it's been alright. I was seriously thinking about dropping Ms. Lees' class, cuz I just seriously don't want a D. I hate D's. and I dont' wanna start getting D's. I know. I'm lazy and it's my fault that I would get such a horrible grade. But I must get this done and over with. I also have to take this exam. AHH. well.

I just noticed how stinkin' chunky I've been feeling, but it's almost that time of the month, so that might be the reason. But, i've been wanting to do like tummy excersizes, like crunches and stuff. But, i was thinking, I wonder if I could get a membership for Gold's Gym, cuz i don't think it would be that much...but I HATE going to Gyms I'd rather get excerisize by going outside. but it rains' half the time in Oregon. So, maybe it'd be a good investment..
OH! speaking of investing..>I want to take the scuba diving class in January. I've taken an intro. class, but i just gotta tell ya how much FUN i had! For real! I can't wait to go to the ocean, for a couple of dives..although it would be pretty cold..but to think. I could go, when I go to Israel! HOW BAD I WANT TO BE IN ISRAEL!!!!!!!!

I'm not sure how much longer, but i feel God's heart pulling me there, I wonder if it's gonna be next summer, if i'm going then cuz i just am aching to go back, to pray and take Hebrew classes, help out in the Messianic Jewish Churches. i've been reading in teh news that Israel is going to allow Palestine to have it's own state....NO! that's NOT what God wants...and I don't know why they are forgettign the Lord their God! I'm hoping to do a very intense study on the Torah part of scriptures while being in Israel....cuz that's the strongest way you can minister to the Israelites. If i use their word and show them how Jesus has come to fulfill them, then maybe they'll see...but not by my strength or power, but by His spirit. HOW I long to go back there. Sometimes, that verse, i think in Matthew, pops up in my head, when it says;..."Oh, Israel, how I've longed to gather you in my arms, just like a hen gathers her chicks!!!!!!!..." to think that's Jesus' heart towards His people..i want that kinda heart towards them too. Not a condemning, "you're going to hell, cuz you don't know Jesus" attitude. But one that is hurting for them, a heart of compassion, please LorD!

Welp, I need to get ready for work. I think I'll stop at the Kiva to see if they have any couscous...yummy.
sweet spring song.