I am titling this journal Entry "The stubborn American Soul"

I was broken...completely broken. It all began with a little set-up, Jesus demonstration, downtown- during the Cherry Festival tonight- adn I was walking past it with Amber, and some guy next to me was saying that he'd like to take an axe to the signs they had up- which preached the word of God- and i really could feel the stronghold over that area- like that specific spot. I felt pretty weird the whole night, but i was certainly broken right then and there.
The day is coming, where people won't like Me becuz i know Jesus, and becuz I love Jesus, and I"m a christian. I carry the name of Christ. It never came to me before this night, how vital it is to build faithfulness in me right now- so, when those days come. I will not leave my love.Even if my family abandonds me. Even if my very sisters leave my side, I will remember this night and know that I knew it was coming.

That's not exactly what Iwas broken about- I just knew, there were people down there, drinking,smoking, getting wasted, high- whatever. And there were people there putting on a front, acting like they were cool and accepted. there were people that showed their anger on the outside, the ones who hated...I just felt all the hurt, becuz I knew God was reaching out to them, right there- with the word of God right in their faces.
AND THEY DESPISED IT.
AND THEY DESPISED THE ONES WHO STOOD FOR IT.
and i felt many hearts cold.
overwhelming emptiness.
Only Jesus can save us! Only Jesus can help us...out of our sin, our hurt, pain, fear, anger, lonliness. Only Jesus will be there when nobdoy else is. And only Jesus remains standing when everyone else falls away. ON judgement day, He will be the one standing

I can't explain it all. But i had to type it in here. I'm just really broken, and I want God to save my family. There are no other ways- there is only One WAY and His name is Jesus.
How can I let people know??
Especially if I live in a country that thinks they don't need God. thinks they don't need anything/anybody but theirselves. Oh....I'm broken. I'm hurting. cuz i know the stubborness of our hearts.....i know the stubborness of my heart. adn i know it hurts God.
I"m crying.
I"m crying.
I"m crying.
How can i show this to a stubborn people group LORD?
Be with me always and speak the words you want said alone.
I love you and i want what you want. Continue to do this good work in me...by breaking me, you are setting me free.
set me free LORD i pray...
sweet spring song.