I'm back. I thought it'd wise to type,considering my pleas last night, to God.
Well, He met me in a different way...through a friend, that i was try to ignore- Jeannie. We were suppose to get together last night, and i ignored her first two calls, and then i was finished typing in here, so i thought it'd be good to answer the phone, at least I would have somebody to hang out with.
SO, it turned out to be very different from what I expected it to. I think the Lord set me up. He set Jeannie my way, to pull me up, and to get the focus back onto Jesus...cuz Jeannie started talking about self will, like to coax oneself to do something....and then i started talking about the song- that we're gonna sing together, which is on the Hungry CD- "Father you're all i need"- and well, i told her what the song was about, and that ...no matter how much power i think i have as a human, i'm not always going to be strong enough...i'll need Jesus to help me. I'll need the Father God. which is like totally contradicting, or something like that to what I was saying last night...well, actually, I was vocalizing what I typed. Cuz it's exactly what i was saying...that He comes close...and loves us.

Yeah, I think the Lord set me up...so, i broke down last night. I spilled the beans. Like how can I be like this and still believe, or have faith that God will be here. My circumstances dont' mold God, God molds me in my circumstances.

I'm outtie, i gotta go teach now.
chow