yup, it certainly won't open. I've tried two different ways, and my site will not open. Maybe God is trying to protect what I say, but not letting it open up. Maybe? I don't know.

so, I'm so glad i finally heard from Ellen, cuz i've had her dress for a while now..and Hopefully she can send me money- well, she could send it to autumn or give it to Sharron- to put in my account, or send me my medicine, I"m running out, and my face is breaking out like crazy...i hate the water here...it's not really good, you can't even drink it.

well, i got an email from Amy, i was so glad to hear from her- my heart's been achin'..ofcourse, as usual. I fill my time with sleeping and movies, or the internet....typing in here, emailing or chatting'- with a new friend, he's in China too. his name is Alex and he's working on the coast, teaching english..and he's from the UK- england, and he sounds pretty nice...cool. He's been to the US for the past 3 years, working in a summer camp in NY- for rich people's kids...he gets 3,000 dollars! for only 2 months working, i thought that sounded pretty good. Maybe I should look into doing summer camps when i get back before school starts.
i've decided to start preparing for the dental class- i've looked up a bit of information...and have read alittle about the mandible, the maxillary, and the different teeth, their names. But it's hard to find exact information- like just on dental work, becuz the internet is so vast i'm not sure what to type exactly. I've tried anatomy, dental, oral hygenie...a lot of things...and most of the sites i get are like schools or books on anantomy, that i could buy- but i want the information that's in the book on the net! And most of the stuff is so confusing...I guess I could just memorize it, and when the time comes I could be a human dictonary on the dental anatomy of humans...i guess. My time should be spent doing other things than sleeping and watching movies.

As i review my lastest journals, i know i am getting real with God- i know i'm being real...even to myself.. so that's better than being a phony. Pretending everything is alright, when everything isn't. with me anyway.
So, I shallbe off. Watching a movie again...Pirates of the carribean..again...i should go get more movies.
april