I just finished You've got mail. I've never believed in email set-ups. Cuz I think, that if you don't spend personal quality time with a person, then you won't really know them. I think emailing is just another way of spilling your thoughts out into a letter and then sending that letter to somebody. and then your character might be completely different, once you meet the person too. Like, if a shy person talks well over the internet...becuz he/she isn't confronted with a person in real life- then, once it comes down to meeting that person...it'll be a whole nother ball game. I hope that's not the way with Alex from England,...whenever I meet him.
Ofcourse, while watching the movie, it always makes me want to drink coffee, so I drank the last few packetts of pretend coffee. Choking them down ofcourse. I thinks it's becuz they talk about starbucks in there. Once starbucks is mentioned, i start foaming at the mouth : )
maybe not so much...

It was cool, today in class- I played the song "Love Song" by Third Day and a boy in class asked me about it. And he asked if the song was directed towards a woman. It does give off that kinda feeling to it, but I pointed out exactly that it wasn't. But that it was the love of God towards His people. And the kid asked me more about the song. I wonder if that is wrong to play songs in the class like that. I wonder if they'll make me stop. But i'll continue untill the doors are shut on me.

I cried last night. I don't know. i think I already talked about this in my last blog.../this morning. I think I've been hitting my head against a brick wall this whole time...hurting myself, while Jesus is speaking to me through other people!....like Jeannie, asking to sing a song with me- and it's gonna be a worship song. And how she wrote me a note for class and it said "God wants you to be happy! Smile!" and how my own MOTHER talks to me about faith, and keeping it becuz God is bigger than I think. And, also...Michael, in Jung Joe, telling me to hold on, and that God is with me...It's all really weird. Becuz I think I'd be all strong and knowing this stuff already. But I don't seem to know it anymore. I need to know it. I need to live it. I remember hearing a preacher once preach that faith is a lot different when you start living it. When you actually carry out your belief. Ofcourse, everything is all comfy cozy when you don't need to rely on your faith. Or maybe the whole time, I was. Maybe now, I just realize how much Jesus held me up before, with what little faith I had. Now He's trying to stretch it.

I can't believe how much I complain. I ask God to keep my complaining tounge behind my teeth and to notice the things He has done for me instead. Realize the blessing of God before it passes.
I seriously hate it when it's that time of the month, cuz i get all emotional and yucky feeling. That's why i felt all yucky this past week i think...good thing it's almost over!

well, I'm out. It's possible I'll read my bible tonight. it's only 11: o clock.
sweet spring song