I"d like to think of myself as Eowyn...with the strength to fight in battle as well. To see the enemy flee before me. I think the Lord wants to show me how to use the sword, but i'm too lazy sometimes, when he asks me, if I'd like to go out to practice.
I can feel my teeth move a bit now. It's kinda funny. Like, a baby inside ..or something: "I felt it kick honey!~" Rather, i feel my teeth move.
well, i was suppose to go out to eat with my friend, But for some odd reason he never showed up. that sucks, cuz i wanted to go to the Western restaurant and see how good it was. maybe they had thanksgiving things to eat there today...: ( sad. I resorted to eating noodles and the rest of my sad ice cream. The ice cream over here is more like frozen whippcream, or something like it. Not as good though. this was my thanksgiving. It is alright. I know that is only for a time, and my real feast is waiting in heaven for me, along with my Father, who I am thankful for... Iknow this day isn't about me anyways. it's about being thankful for others.
I reflect on things that i am thankful for. God's faithfulness for one. And His promises for another. I am reminded of His promises...sometimes. But i forgot some of them. I think.. I long for more promises from Him. I long to hear His voice clear enough, to where it's just a whisper in my ear, and the promises flow out like a river.

Those days ....aaahhh, i remember those days. I cannot stand this anymore.... keep reflecting on what I remember about God, instead of being overwhelmed with it still... My radicality has slowly dwindeled, and my passion is sucked from me....I cannot stand it anymore. I resist, with the only strength I have. and sometimes even that fails me.
Let me not dwell on it. I know, the Lord must be on my side in this-- He must be preparing something in the trail ahead of me.
Well, the happy part of today was that i heard from Becka and she wants me to go to Ireland with her. Backpacking! We be trekkin' together! and we could visit her family on an island somewhere there. Anyways. We could find some sorta hiking trails and then, if anything else, just hike across the Island just beside a road or something. I'm all about it. Autumn and I were gonna go, but ofcourse Autumn's trying to convince me that there's NO way i could go. I"m thinking' "Yes! There is" First Becka said she'd like to go to Nepal, and i"m thinking "MMM, i kinda wanna get OUT of Asia, and get some good ole' american hiking in" And, so we both think that hiking Ireland is good. I could just open a credit line to travel, plane ticket's won't be that expensive....and ofcourse have some money saved up. I think all this is good. I am a traveler, it's always been in my blood. Getting out in the world and see things that many people haven't seen....some good some bad. But the good far outweighs the bad, I saw a little of it when Becka and I went out to the waterfalls. There are beautiful places in the world, even in China if I get to look enough. I must seek them out.

Welp, here I go now, watching my third movie of the day. i watched Finding Nemo for the billionth time and then I'm watching The Two towers again....always...i love that movie.
I will go to bed late tonight I feel. I took a 3 hour nap today! if boredom sets in, I always take a nap.
sweet spring song