a guy stopped over here today. with some of his students, from SIAS. Bill and Eva know him. his name i Ryan, and he's grown up in China. Hong Kong- cuz his parents were missionaries there. Now, he's chosen to be a missionary in China. Anyways. he, along with the other students he brought with him, prayed for me. I cried, cuz it seems like I can't pray myself. I'm choked up --and I seem so far away from Him. I don't think he's there anymore. OH. man. I'm not gonna get into that now.
Anyways. he said he'll ask the main guy that's in charge about getting me to work over there at SIAS...either that or getting me outta here. I told him how i feel about talking to Darwin. I don't know if he understands that- or what I meant.
so, i had a little bit a better day.
i didn't have a dream last night though. I wonder if i'll have one tonight. one about why God wants me here.
And I guess now, that if God wants me to go, he'd create a way out for me. He'd create an open door. and if God wanted me to teach here, He'd help me out. I hope He starts helping me out. I really need it.
anyways.
i'm engery less. so i'm gonna split now.
sweet spring song.