I have no way of getting out of here. So, i take that as a response from God that He still wants me here. No matter how bad i want out. When i feel unsafe, vulnerable,..scared. Yeah. All these things would make a person run the other way. Run for safety that is. Yet, i must stay. I hate this. But, I will make it through, becuz the Lord is for me. Maybe this is what Joshua 1:9 is all about. Me- not being afraid. To be courageous and stuff, facing all these things over here with no fear. Yeah. No wonder God always reminded me of it. He knew that I was gonna be like this over here and I needed the extra reminding.
Anyways. I hope I can go to the Island in the south with Star. Hopefully we can go scuba diving! OH that would really make my new year! for real. I am just dying to go swimming. and to be in a tropical place like that. OH. that would rock. nice beaches, warm sun. That's all i want. So, hopefully Star would know somebody down there, and possibly have a week off, so we can go there. Take the train, or plane. I don't know. I don't know how much money i'll have.
I should visit SIAS some time. I'll wait to get a response from Ryan though and see if he's talked to the people he knows.
He seems nice enough. It was really cool to get prayed for by somebody. and for chinese students to be praying for me...so kind to be thinking about me. I don't deserve it.

So i'm outty. I am really sick of sitting in front of my computer. I'm gonna need to find something to do for a whole month! UGH! i hope i wont' be bored.
Sweet spring song.
(wanting to change my name to Eeowyn- imade it up! it's another form of Eowyn, on LOTR)