well, there's this kinda quote that I've been thinking about:
something about living...or something. I can't think of it now..but it's about life.
Last night before I went to bed, I decided to read some of my old-old journal entries, from like 1995- I was 15 yrs. old...and i was really hurting then. I'm so glad that the Lord saved me when He did, or else I'd be falling apart at the seams. I was suicidal, hopeless and empty. I was one of those empty shell people, who could have gone through life comletely screwed up. I'm so glad I'm not like that anymore.
I'm sick of going to school. I just wanna find a job and work- but at the same time I don't wanna get a crapy job. A good job, which I can build off of.
I ate sooo much food last night. I was craving eggs, so i cooked up 4 eggs and ate them at like 9:30 at night!---I'm sure it's becuz of all the running I've been doing. As much as I can, i spend the gym time running.
I'm thinking I'm gonna meet with Roger and find out from him what would be a good school to go to for like an Outdoor Recreation major. I'm so worried, if I ended up going for something like that- i wouldn't find a job anywhere! AUGH! that would suck...but i guess i take that risk with anything--plus this would give me the opportunity to move around...when I really want somebody to settle down with.
My heart is like torn into different directions it seems- everyday.
I'm SOOO sick of school!
anyways. I gotta either find a job or go to school in the summer! and i don't really wanna do school in the summer.
SO, Ciao...i hope to go to Italy some day too..hopefully.
April