Ah.
the horrible feeling of sin.
it lingers.
it darkens the soul.
it keeps you in a pit of despair.
Until you realize you can look up and find hope.
I guess being saved is up to you- the individual. You can choose to stay in your own sin and wallow there. But then you can also humble yourself and accept the fact that you need somebody to help you. and that somebody is the only one that can help you out of your sin- Jesus.
And His name is sweeter than anyone else's name.
it's a joy to call it out.
but then you feel the shame and the guilt.
but then you realize that's only Satan trying to pull you down- and kill you. and destroy everything that God has worked on in you.
How many times have I told Jesus that I'd choose him, rather than my sin. and How many times has that not happened. UGH.

The deceiver sucks.
He really does...the life out of everything that is living.

But I will look to the one that can give me hope and save my soul from despair.

I can't wait to go home....ahh. home...both,. the everlasting home and the Michigan one.
So, i must go to the Dairy Mart in town and find out when I'm starting. and if i didn't get the job then i'm screwed. But, i'll be working tons- and saving every penny. No more fun for me for a while. I'll walk everywhere and ask other people to drive, so I don't waste gas.
I should check my account balance.
Ciao for now.