I gotta be honest.
I didn't expect I would follow Angie into Streeters (the local dance club). Becuz we couldn't find anything else to do,- and plus she goes there all the time now, i guess.
anyways. being honest.
i understand what Paul was talking about now- when he said he does the very thing that he hates and hates himself for it....Why cannot i stand strong in the face of old friends?
Well, I have been notified by the Lord that i hafta tell Angie, (as soon as i talk to her again)- that I'm making that my first and last visit to Streeters- or any other place that serves alcohol...(as in bars)
And i know that if i tell her, i think I'll lose a friend...and well, that's kinda okay, cuz she thinks you need to drink to have fun- and last night, as I lay awake in bed, i thought of all these different things we could've done instead of that. and i realize that Angie has a problem. She "needs" to be drunk to have fun.
i surely know that i don't.
and anyways. I said goodbye to that past sin. Why is it trying to ensnare me again? Just becuz i fell this once, being back home already- doesn't mean that I'm down for the count, cuz no matter how beat up i look like afterwards, I'm one of those that keep getting back up and dodge the next punch, before it comes.
I'm a child of the SON....why would i be hanging out in the dark places of the city? I need a house of light to go to- to have fellowship and communion with .

So, that is the story of the day.
I'm gonna go to my dad's house today, and talk to my grandpa.
I start at the low carb shop, only 5:00-6:00, she's gonna show me how to close the shop down tonight. and then i start for real hours tomorrow.
i must tell Megan and Angie that i can't go and drink with them...or go to places that they would be drinking...cuz it just tears me apart.
I know what I should do.
I know when i should do it.
NOW....is the courage to say it.

The song