can't hang out with Angie anymore. why has it come to this?
well- i can't go to Streeters anymore. there's no way i'm gonna do that again- (but haven't I said this before? Does this sound a little too familiar)
I was faced with two songs last night- one was about being Broken- be Evanescence...and then the other song- "Breaking the habit"- and last night..i am gonna break the habit.
I WON'T DO IT AGAIN.

i need out of this pit. this ugly pit of numbness and void. empty fillers.
i have changed. i am a new creation....gosh. gotta keep telling myself that.
i dont' practice what i preach.
i'm a stinkin' hipocrite...i hate it...ugh.
but it's so hard, to face your friends and say "no" that's all i gotta do. but it's so hard...
i will next time though. i HAVE TO.
i'm drinkin' lots of water and i'm very tired.
i'm gonna start closing.