i watched Neverending Story last night- it was great. i haven't seen that movie in so long! i think i'll watch the second one again.
Amber also called last night- cuz she needs money- well, her and Duane, cuz they won't have enough money to pay for everything- even to buy food ...it's sad, cuz Amber is sooo stressed out, cuz she's in charge of the finances so to speak, and since they both don't know about how Jesus would handle it- or how he designed it to be--- that decision wise it comes down to Duane, but Amber says he's bounced checks before- and he's really bad with money, But- i don't think Jesus meant for Amber to carry such a burden, already, being married and stuff.and she asked if i could send her money or something- and she called Dad- and it was so cool to hear dad say that he's gonna send her 100 dollars or something by the end of the week- and i told him, i could send 50 bucks with it- and he said that "No, no...i'll send some money"- and it was just soo cool, cuz he's trying to take responsbility now- and it almost makes me wanna cry- cuz we could never rely on papa helping us- with money things - growing up, we were really independant, having to buy everything on our own...and he's sending HER money.
Gosh, i'm so proud of my dad.

i hope to marry somebody humble like my papa- to where I wanna tuck underneath the authority of my husband, becuz i know it's not becuz he is going on a power trip- but i'll know that he is making the decision out of his love for me- and for the best for both of us.- and what Jesus would want.
i think i have a couple years till then.

it's been so humid here...gosh, i hate humidity.the air is heavy.
to watch the world change around me...it's hard to handle. Brandi getting married...me not having any friends, Megan getting married..i sigh inside..ugh. i cry inside. but not outside, cuz i need to hold that in- cuz it won't do much good.
it won't be worth the tears.
it's just that i need to wait. i need to hold on.


what else...
the computer at nancy's house is sooo screwed up - i don't know what's going on with it. but it seems like the only time i'll use the computer is when i'm here at work, or at mom and toms' house.
i haven't watched the Lord of the Rings 2nd one in a long time. i should do that sometime soon.
or the 3rd one, actually, i think i'll get that one sometime soon.
when i get another fatty check from work- my last one was for 530- for 2 1/2 weeks! that totally rocked!
i hope for at least another 500 dollar check before school starts
i hope i can do this trip to Ireland with Autumn, i really don't know!
ugh.