last night i smelled the air and it smelled of winter.
Winter is just around the corner, we're gonna have a hard one too.
It was wonderful smelling that smell becuz i knew change was coming. I knew there was something to look forward to.
last night was a wedding reception- and it was a girl that i graduated with Rochelle something- and she had red hair and she's really Irish...it made me think of Becca. OH. i miss her- and everyone else. But the girl - that i knew...who got married- she threw up, cuz she drank too much, but she didn't even drink alot. i felt so sorry for her. on her wedding day.- that happened. not good at all.
not a wise move on her part though.

But what else. i hafta work all of today. i think i'll read more of my Mere CHristianity book.
oh yes. last night- when i got home- Deanna and Kylie were all dancing really wrong together- right in front of this guy (who had no shirt on-who is supposedly their uncle) and he was just standing there staring at them...and i heard some freakish comment like "You girls sure know how to dance..."- and I was like "GIRLS I WANNA TALK TO YOU DOWNSTAIRS"- and i told them i don't want them dancing like that in front of this guy- even if he's kinda their uncle., cuz I KNOW what he's thinking and it's sick and wrong, and i'm sorry, but WHY DIDN'T he have a shirt on?? half naked guy in nancy's house running around? sorry, but i didn't like that at all- i'm gonna have a talk with Nancy too and find out what the heck that was all about. i kinda consider nancy's house a safe house- for us women to be ourselves and when there's all of a sudden half naked guy behind the kitchen counter WATCHING TWO 12 YEAR OLDS DANCE! i have A BIG PROBLEM with that. so i'll have a conver. with Nancy tonight at work.
i had a muffin (blueberry! yummy!) and coffee and a bannana for breakfast - so i'm pretty full right now.

Oh. and now Brandi and Zack are already married, i don't need to go out to Oregon for the winter. and i think that kinda sucks, cuz it made a way for me to go out there again- it made an excuse...that i would HAVE to - but now i don't. and since i don't really have the money for a ticket, i really shouldn't.
i'm just so sad about that whole thing. gosh that sucks.
i'm gonna read to get my mind off it.

- this was added later:
well, now that i'm not going to Oregon for the winter, i will have more money for the UK trip with Autumn- it'll be REALLY expensive though...too expensive. I"ll need to save up at least 2000 dollars for spending money as it is. that's sooo much, and then i gotta buy a plane ticket- which will cost about 800-900 dollars. ugh.- but Adam told autumn to buy the ticket in December- becuz that's when it'll be the cheapist.
i'm so excited. I'm planning the trip for the Ireland part- and Autumn's planning all of the England, and Scotland part. I'm really hoping i can do this. if i put aside TONS of my student loan refund money- 2000 each semester, then i'll be good to go. Cuz i'll be working tons also. so, that'll cover my rent for Nancy, braces and car stuff. hopefully! OH LORD! please!