this computer is way slow- it took like 5 minutes for the blogger site to come up- it's Nancy's computer.
i'm currently in pain- in my wrists and my hands, and i'm wearing both wrist guard.
everything is cool...
i went out with Eric- to the Clock, had some food- this is on Sat. night, after work 4:30 in the morning.- oh, it was so sad, that night- cuz we were there sooooo late...but afterwards, it was cool to hang out with Eric, he's cool, but he hasn't called me since then- and i don't know if it's becuz i was too radical about Jesus- or what...but if that's the case- i'm glad that he hasn't called, cuz i wouldn't want somebody to call that's not also in love with Jesus that way.
i have Lord of the RIngs playing, while i type....it's almost done- i love the part with Faramir. he's a good character.

i'm kinda bored today cuz i didn't hafta work at all...i went for a hard-core bike ride, down a rugged path- a 2-track path, behind Nancy's house..it went on for quite a ways, then i turned around- and went for a swim. i kinda kept myself busy, so i wouldn't be sitting there- beside the phone, waiting for him to call. gesh, i wonder how many girls go through that- waiting for somebody to call- and they never do. what at let down...what a heart-break.
possibly that's part of the reason that girls never open their heart to love- they reduce it to a one-night stand becuz they will get hurt, waiting and hoping that the guy will call- hoping to find somebody that wants them.

it turns me to that song by 100 Portraits- "Do You want me....":
"when i found you there, you were all alone,
you were lonely, you were lonely.
when i picked you up- you couldn't get enough,
i'm the only, i'm the only....
and you run for oh-so long, i wish you'd come to me long ago,
and i found you, and i loved you,
do you want me....now?"

Gosh- it sucks. i really does, cuz it makes me think that there are no noble men out there- seeking love. seeking a love. the kinda guy that'll be faithful and valorous-
Oy.
Do i hope in vain Lord? Do i wait in vain? You will be honorable. You will keep your promise.
i'll hold onto that.