i stared at my own retirement bed with wide eyes. this would be me someday. i will get old. it's inevitable...it's the only sure thing in life...i will die someday, and it will all be over and done with. and my thoughts on this while driving home from the hospital, was "God creator of the Earth, and heaven, ordained this to happen. and He knows that it is good. this is good"

i went to go visit my grandma in the hospital, cuz she broke her ankle, slipped on the wet floor at home and broke her ankle- it was sideways and she HERSELF cracked it back into place....while nobody was there...while she was alone...she endured...she triumped, she conquored.
but she'll be alright...i know she will.
but seeing her in that bed made me think two things:
1. these nurses go through A LOT- (meaning personal stuff- like they wipe people's BUTTS!)
2. these nurses will someday be in the same spot as the person they're helping.
and a third...
3. i will someday be in grandma's spot, on the bed...

i dont' wanna be. i don't want somebody wiping my butt..it's embarrasing...it's totally humiliating..

so i thought i might just take the time to type this- i felt WEIRD all day long too...and i wonder if this is the reason why- cuz grandma fell. - and i didn't know it at that time, but the Lord was trying to tell me.
hmmm.

i'm going hiking tomorrow. and i'm gonna stay up late tonight to finish up a bit of homework- being productive.