I'm at work and pretty much sick of doing Dental Ass. homework. and there's hardly anybody coming in today- i really wish i brought my "Sacred Romance" book by John Eldredge...He's great as a writer,..he makes things VERY personal, you can connect with it as a reader.
i brushed my hair for the first time in over a week last night...and the growling little rats were revolting as i was pulling them from my hair~! Yeah, they think they can build little nests in my hair and stay there or something!- what the heck, who do they think they are? so, my hair isn't really that full right now...i think i brush the curl out every time i brush my hair, so i don't wanna brush it that much!
But i was tempted to just let it dread up on it's own...but i'm faced with the reality that i hafta get a "grown up-s" job someday..so i shouldn't do it. oh dreams of dreams...

i'm just kinda chillin' right now, wishing somebody was online so i could either chat or email or something...I had a good lunch- Mushroom Parmesan Ravioli, with some sorta creamy sauce on the top! it was sooo good!
Yesturday when i was at Oryana- i saw Olivia! she's like my cousin, kinda- cousin in law? i guess. but she's Josh's sister- my long-lost cousin's sister...and well, we talked- and Josh is in Texas and he's thinkin' about moving back home- and living off the land with his sister and her husband...it'll rock. cuz they have like 10 acres of land, and they're making a garden and stuff. that was my dream right there. to have a kind of commune- living together in harmony with the Lord and producing all our needs by just living off the land- and ofcourse, going to buy the things we need to get. like the front of my journal cover that i decorated- with that picture, of the guy holding' the sheeps' horn and his wife- holding the bundle of sheep's wool and they look like they're just backcountry livin' kinda folk. that's awesome.

But i guess I am who I am. I'm nothing else.
not to say my dreams WON'T come true- but i am who i am now becuz of life and what the Lord has done in my life up to this point. It's still awesome...it's still all good.
i'm happy.
ciao
bella