i just read about Esther...ohhhh, the noble woman of God...who dared to step into the King's Court, not knowing if he'd stretch his scepter out to her- to save her life....to send a message. She was made the Queen-for such a time as this...as Mordecai the jew said. She was wedded to the King for a purpose...and she was CHOSEN for a reason.
I think she was humble though. Not all prideful about being a Queen- i think she would have been a bit more quiet and still trying to understand "How did I get here?" "Am i really a queen?" I think these would be a few of the thoughts going through her mind.
but she was daring and a warrior in spirit. Becuz she revealed Haman for who he truly was...a sneaky snake, a venomous serpent- who went through the back door in cowardice- trying to complete a task of destruction.
But she revealed his plan.
not only that- but i think she revealed Satan IN Haman- for who he really was. a cowardly snake.

i'm digging on some cheese crackers right now, and I already had 2 Cherry French Sodas- those surely are addicting!
and i gotta work ALL day today, and i surely should go visit dad and vickie tomorrow after church : (
i hafta drive all that way.

i wanna receive more visions from God.
i want HIS ideas in my mind.
i want HIS thought and HIS desires.
i just want more of Jesus.
consume me Lord.

You know, when i think about life- and all the expensive things of the world- the Hummers, the Vets, the mansions, the personally owned helicopters?? - it kinda drives me crazy. in America we have totally gone over bored. When i think, personally- about what i would ever need. I DON'T need a whole lotta "stuff"--- i really just need Jesus, but anything He gives me is kinda like a blessing ontop of knowing him alone. material things will fade away, right? so what will any of it mean in the end? A pile of rubbish that will melt away with all the world. in a blaze! HA HA!. for some reason that makes me happy.
cuz what is a man at his best?
Just a man, really. that's all we ever will be.
a man will not stand in front of God with all his "stuff" and convince God that he is some important man where he comes from.....
he will be bare before the Lord, weak and helpless....vulnerable...to the piercing stare of the Lord.
at best, anyone is just human. and can never be more than another...
just some random thoughts on life...
-April