i had a horrible dream last night.
for one, i was trying to figure out what i made on my check from the low-carb shop i think, and during that process, i was presented with people to marry.
and well, it was weird.
i just picked the most random person, becuz i thought i would never be happy anyways- i picked Danielle at work! she's a girl! YUCK! and she's like as old as my mom! So, we got married, and just like lived together, but i never talked to her, cuz we DON'T get along at all! and after a few weeks I REALLY wanted OUT of it- becuz it was sooo screwed up. and well, i was sitting in front of the pastor and stuff- and we were talking about divorce and he said that God hates divorce- but i was like "I'M MARRIED TO A GIRL! and she's OLD- like my MOM's age!" and well, i was freaked out, cuz it seemed like my pastor wasn't gonna let me get a divorce. and so i was sad.
becuz i made a mistake in the first place- becuz i married the first person that came along. without getting to know them or talk to them. it was a VERY weird dream.
never want a dream like that again :(
and i don't know if i should take that as a word from the Lord or not. becuz of somebody that is coming to visit me.
hmmm.
we'll see.
anyways. I'm still pretty excited. i just hope that Joseph stays safe on the road, driving here.- cuz it's like SOOO snowy! like we have a winter-storm warning right now! it took 30 minutes to get my van cleaned off and warmed up! and i fish-tailed 2 times driving to work today! it was scary! i seriously should get snow tires. it made me really wish for the winters of Oregon more! cuz i got sooo snowy and wet! yuck!
i had a good time last night- i made more soap and decorated the tree! it was such a blast!- we put lights up, ornaments, and tinsel. I don't think i've decorated a tree in years- for real. and for some weird reason, it felt like it was my tree, like it was my house, and like it was MY family, for a breif moment in time.
i feel like the Lord is telling me to be picky and specific when it comes to what i want in a husband, (becuz it could end up like my dream-if i'm not careful!) so, i will examine my heart and make sure i'm not settling for less than what God would have for me ;)
ciao for now,
the snowy princess !