just got done talking to pastor mike and the wife- and well, ohhhhhh ...i have a sinking feeling in my gut right now.
i cannot make somebody passionate for the Lord. they have to want that all on their own- and i cannot make somebody want the Holy Spirit filling and overflowing, they have to want that all on their own.
i will not dangle this idea of getting filled with the holy spirit- as bait for somebody- like "If you do this and this and this THEN i will go out with you..."
oh man.
the sinking feeling.
i do not wanna be a wife- 15 years down the road, asking myself "What kind of man did I marry!?"- and being worried becuz he might think "That Holy Spirit stuff is too weird for me!"- or thinking something else, or NOT WANTING TO SERVE THE LORD AT ALL!....just becuz i thought that he would/could change when i knew him before getting married. i cannot change somebody- they must want MORE of the Lord on their own.


eye me!
Ohy Vay!

we will see.
God will see. and he will show me