my van is currently at the doctor's house. :(
i think he's slowly dying.
and well, he's held up- God has promised that it would be a trust-worthy vehicle, one where i wouldn't have to worrry that it'd break down soon after having it.
i'm totally thankful
to God/Jesus/Holy Spirit
for providing for me, just for being there- and for KNOWING what i need, even before i asked for it. God had it all figured out and planned out. He knew that i would need a vehicle that would make it all the way to Michigan, even before i KNEW i was ever gonna be going back HOME to Michigan.
ohhhhh. Jesus.
Jesus....ohhhh Jesus. i just whisper your name, and feel your presence, and know that yer ever-nearer to me. i still seek you jesus. i still call out your name- just for the mere fact of saying it.
i want to say your name- i want to feel you draw near....and well. i just want you to know that.
despite my circumstances....i know you are near. i know that you care...i know that you are capable and willing to come to my aid. so i trust that you will do whatever your awesome will entails.
i love you,
and i thank you for thinking of us- jesus- for remembering us, all the while, being nailed to a cross, walking with the disciples, turning water into wine....thank you for being one of us. and thank you for taking my punishment.
i am crucified with Christ, and now Jesus, you live in me.

amen