oh lord.
i thank you. that you left such things mysterious to me.
i thank you
God
for not allowing me to see the full picture of life right off the bat.
OH GOD.
i thank you cuz you've set things in your perfect will.
i thank you,
cuz you know what you are doing.
and that you kept some things in life a suprise to me-
that you held back some of the secrets of knowing you, till now.
and that you have even more waiting for me to find out.
you are such a mystery to me, Jesus. you are such a wonderful mystery.

regardless of what your will is Jesus, you WILL always be like this. you will never fail me- your WILL will always be awesome to me.