finished reading "Every Woman's Battle"- and completely encouraged.
1. To draw away with the Lord-as my lover
2.That sex isn't a sinful thing (if it's in a marriage relationship)
3. That guys aren't the only ones that struggle with sexual sins...

This is the book that is like that one: "Every Man's Battle"- but for woman, obviously. And i really gleaned everything outta that book. In order to overcome and conquer sexual sin- one must "starve it to death"- as Shannon Ethridge said in the book.
that's so right on. and there's just alot she said about- like married life and what will you do, if yer husband or whatever, let's you down..or something like that...and isn't as romantic as you thought he would be. Or that you thought you were marrying into a man that was truly passionate, but just turns out to want his "need" met- and not really love you in the romantic way anymore,.

I could sense by this book that there could be problems, if my husband didn't know my love language (cuz she talks about that in the book)- i would be very frustrated and break down in tears,- becuz he didn't leave a little secret love note for me to find- or becuz he didn't engage in deep conversation with me- or becuz he didn't give me a hug that day. Even reading some of the stories in this book, about women, who give their ALL to minister to the husbands- but yet they dont' know their wifes' certain love language, so their wife is left out to dry....and in tears.
That thought really left me feeling hopeless- like "what if that happened to me?!" What if the person you loved didn't EVEN try to minister to your love language? Like, TALKING...JUST THAT...is enough for me- if i engage in a deep conversation- about God/Jesus/Holy Spirit- or anything else for that matter- IS ENOUGH for me! i mean, that would fill my love tank, i guess. Cuz i communicate and want to be communicated by this love language, of talking.
I would hope that my husband would love me enough to sacrifice his own way of "trying" to connect with me in a different love language- in order to meet that area of "Talking" that is REALLY my love language. And I would try to understand and get to know his love language as well!

WOW. marriage is sooo complicated. all these things that could happen, and present problems...that i can't solve NOW. or i can't predict NOW.
But then again, it wasn't mine to solve or predict. It's the LORD's to HEAL.
But, it warns me, or guards me- to not get married thinking:
"He will change, He will be that man i really want to marry, after a while he will be different.." and marry into the deception of another creature, which is NOT your husband at all!

All i really want, is somebody that is completely, hopeless, and passionately SOLD OUT FOR CHRIST. nothing less. and you know what- i don't think that's asking too much. It's EXACTLY what the Lord has set-aside for me- nothing less.

the forever,
sweet spring song