heya.
i'm kinda deciding to take a gasstation job again :( cuz it's the closest thing to dad's house, and it's 7.11 an hour. instead of the ridiculous 6.75 an hour to work at Target! what the heck is that!!!??? i'm not driving ALL the way to Traverse city to get paid just 6.75 an hour! yuck.

anyways- thanks patrick for the encouragement- it's nice to know that there's other brothers and sisters out there reading my mind (blogger)- and can say a little pray for me! I APPRECIATE IT MORE THAN YOU KNOW!

gas is up to 2.55! can you believe it! if i didn't live all the way out here in small-town Rapid city- i would ride my bike around everywhere in Traverse city..i think it'd be cool to live downtown somewhere- and just ride my bike places- cuz i have that basket-thingy on the back that i can put stuff in! and i would get more excersize- not that i'm not already- going swimming all the time and such.

I feel pretty mean. cuz yesturday my love called me- to talk on his LONG drive to work- and i was soooo not happy- i didn't talk at ALL...and i kept saying "I'm gonna let you go now, okay"- but then he kept asking me what was wrong- and ofcourse HE KNOWS WHAT'S WRONG....so, he asks' how he can help- and i'm like "you can't do anything!" unless ofcourse he can find me someplace to live and a GOOD job out here- he can't do anything. like i'm totally dependant on the Lord right now. and nobody can do anything FOR me...cuz they can't- NOBODY can just snap their fingers and provide a place to live for my dog and I- and NOBODY can just say "JOB"- and POOF there's a job in existance.

ugh. Vickie is yelling at the kids right now. i really wish i could find a cute little apartment/cottage to live in the woods. that i could have brittany, and a stream nearby- ohhhhhh dream on April :(

well, ciao ya'll.
i hope your days are better than mine.
tons of love from above.