Sad sad sad...all the way around. everything is just NOT working out for me right now...and i'm just totally down about it. kinda trustin' in the Lord- hoping that He will provide a JOB for me and a place to LIVE. Becuz i am currently JOBLESS and have no money and ontop of that, i'm living in my dad's backyard in my tent. i mean- i don't MIND living in a tent and all- i just wish i could have someplace stationary that i could walk around in and call my own :(
and ontop of that- dad and vickie SMOKE...so, it's just gross- i can't spend a whole lotta time inside the house...i am usually found outside, walking around the yard..or going swimming- or taking brittany for a walk. UGH. but there's just SOOO many times you can take a dog for a walk..a.nd SOOO many times you can go swimming.
I'M JUST SOOOO BORED.
vickie's always yelling at the kids cuz they always seem to be doing something wrong...i guess. and dad drinks too much. i think. ugh.
my life is staring me in the face and laughing i think.
right about now.
everything is just making me sad. even breathing! ugh.
can i complain anymore??
sorry ya'll for typing all this sadness.but i can't help it- i need to get out my real feelings..and if i hold them in any longer i'll either burst in tears or continue to be as sad as i am.

I need a job.
and i need a place to live- that is DOG friendly- cuz i have brittany.
dang. i wish i could snap my fingers and boom it'd be done.
ciao ya'll .