ah ha! a moment of silence from the CSI i am watching on Spike TV. Man. i hate myself for being a constant CSI watcher, but i love the dynamics in the character building of each of the characters. Take Grissom, for instance, in the beginning he seems to be so personal and so attached to the victims that are brough into the CSI lab, but in the end is detached and usually doesn't deal with the victim on a personal basis. and then we have Sara- she's actually, quite that...plain ole' sara. nothing flashy about her appearance, like Kathrine, and she just really fades into the background. she's the one that's forgotten.
sometimes. I really feel like Sara. she had problems when she was younger. and her mom was psycho for a while and everything was crazy. and her father was nonexistant...
she's a character that is searching for some sort of sanity in this world- i think. she's trying to find out where there is some sort of constant truth, or constant love, or constant comfort...but she has found none so far- she's only found her work, and it seems like that is what gets her by. but also, she is seeking this constant thing- in Grissom.

i just went outside to my van (which is parked in joseph's parents' driveway) and a whole buncha kids went running. i don't know what they were doing, but i'm sure it wasn't good. so, i went to my van and everything seemed okay. but then again, Joseph lives in the hood. so i don't know what they were up to.
man.... what am i doing? in this life there are so many options and i hope God directs me to make the wise choice