i usually like to type while i'm listening to my friend- Clayton's music... i don't know why exactly, but it gets me in this really introspective mood, where i ask the whys' of life, ya know...and i really reflect on lifes' questions and meaning behind it all...well, for me at least. i can't speak for everyone.

Just recently i've been asking myself the purpose kinda questions.. Kinda remembering all over again what God has created me for and all that good stuff. it's really beautiful....like that one waterdeep song. Anyways- i'm attempting to remember what God has created me for...other than for the purpose of loving me as a Father, and as a purpose of ME loving him, being my Father.... I'm pretty sure i'm called to go into Dentistry- well, dental Hygiene, or Dental Assisting (which i could be DONE and graduated by next year! YAY!)- and well, i've been thinking, i still wanna do some traveling for Jesus- like helping OTHER people is the purpose of visiting this country...and i could do dental assisting in like medical teams in the peace corps, or on mission trip to Africa, with Dentist's or Orthodontists.
I know that the Director of Admissions to the dental assisting program at Camden County College (where i'm going)- has spoken of missions trips they take to Guatamala or Nicaragua i think...every summer. and that would be totally awesome. i'm actually really excited about it.
SO, i know that this little "job" is something i can totally use for God's glory- and that makes me really happy, cuz it's not just a mundane "thing" that the world can just describe as my "job", but i think of it as my mission! my life desire, for people to know Jesus, and to know a DEEPER LOVE!
and i keep trying to beat the thought that being a dental assistant would just be another job...becuz that is what the WORLD is telling me....but if i keep reminding myself that i can truly bless GOD and OTHER people....and show them LOVE by working like that- it would truly be MORE than just a JOB....
i don't know if you guys know what i'm talking about...do you?

Hmmm. what else? I'm trying to figure out what to type...cuz i haven't typed since thanksgiving, or right before really- and it's almost Christmas! So, i've bought all the gifts i wanna get people, but i have yet to send autumn a gift card and what else?? OH yeah, Dad and Vickie a gift card to Ruby Tuesdays, so they can take a romantic getaway out to eat, since they're always watching the kids.

As i'm listening to Clayton's music, i think of Michigan in the summertime. Mostly becuz i met him in the summer time. we were both working at (i know, gasp!)- Burger King...HEY! it was my first job...and that's my excuse! Anyways...we were both there and he was the introspective song writer...he played many songs for me on his piano at home, and occasionally on the piano at the Grand Traverse Resort, being sneaky about it, cuz i think we could've gotten kicked out at any point! OH, those were wild days.
But Michigan in the summertime is sooo beautiful, well traverse city anyways. i think of the vineyards, the pennisula, the drive, the beach...the sky...the very beautiful MOON. the waters...they beckon me as usual....as always. they call me back everytime...just when i was in Texas, just as i started settling down in Oregon...just as i visited CHINA....i dreampt of the waters i think...i felt the waters, i breathed in the deep waters....
they truly beckon me back to themselves,
everytime....
i think it's the native american in me- that wants to return to the waters. the ever changing waters....the sands, the in between sun (becuz it rises not on the east salt waters NOR does it set on the western salt waters) but it rises AND sets over FRESH WATERS- and i think that's rather symbolic. the fresh waters are refreshing, are restoring, are releasing.... everything you need. you can DRINK it, you can't drink salt water.
i think it's rather cool, that Michigan is completely SURROUNDED by FRESH WATERS. not that i celebrate the fresh waters, but rather, i celebrate the CREATOR OF THE FRESH WATER. the one who made the waters and the Earth (solid ground.... Genesis 1:6-...suprisingly enough i actually knew that scripture by heart!)

i think it's funny that i usually type when i'm listening to Clayton's music online. like it's a requirement or something! kinda funny how things end up,