"If I could tell the world just one thing, it would be "We're all okay.............in the end, only kindness matters.......i will get down on my knees and i will pray....." "
- Jewel (the song Hands)

oh my life.... my confusing, complicated, disturbed, transformed, crazy life....
how can anyone EVER explain it?
I think Job tried. I think he attempted to do it...but i think he only grasp a little bit of what it truly is.

There's just too much to describe, feelings, emotions, dancings, whispers, gasps, .....and everything in between
"You took your coat off and stood in the rain, you're always crazy like that......"
"Well excuse me, i guess i mistaken you for somebody else, somebody who gave a damn, somebody more like myself...."
-Jewel

sorry for quoting her so much during my blog, but i'm listening to her....haven't in a long time. kinda buried her....away with all the dusty journals, with all the old memories....with everything that is long gone and almost forgotten, but not quite.

I'm in a wondering mood tonight. thinking about China, becuz i talked to a friend that i met while i was in China- his name is Peter...he was talking to me about going back....i'm not sure what i think about that quite yet. Cuz he told me to pray about it....told me to ask the Lord if i should go back .... and well, i haven't gotten the "go ahead" yet, so i take that as a no for right now.
i would like to see what the Lord would have up his sleeve, if he should ask me to go. i wonder what he would have me do...considering what my last visit was like.

"When the road gets dark and you can no longer see..
just let my love throw a spark,
and have a little faith in me..."

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-Van Morrison